Loaded

Um not quite in the monetary side, but rather, my commitments and responsibilities.

Even before in the mid-year of schooling, i'm already laden wif roles such as Logistics and Administrative In-Charge of YJC's 2nd China Studies in Chinese Seminar, Avontuur Race in Republic Polytechnic, would-be participant of the Hillary Challenge, C/Offr for both East District's Phase 2 and 3 Spec Course, Host to a German student who is visiting Singapore and a would-be member of YJC's Guitar Ensemble Executive Committee.

Really, i think i'm really OCCUPIED with so many things, add in Project Work this year. Well, it basically sums up a both fun and exciting experience in JC. Downside is, i'm not exactly doing well in my subjects. History term tests failed, Maths EPIC fail, Literature fail also, all with the exception of economics, which i'm glad to say, doing well.

And next week is my first GP block test. Whats worrying is the fact that i score a very pathetic grade for my first GP essay at 18/50, when all my peers are getting like >20? Ironic even that i wrote argumentative essays in secondary school... Language, as always, had been my bane. Essay got problem, Compre also got problem. Dunnoe whether if i would survive GP and Chinese Block Test coming next week.

The problem here isn't really whether i can understand for both History/Literature/GP, its that i can't EXPRESS EXPRESS AND EXPRESS myself. History, always blank, unable to write anything. Literature, i ALWAYS get the WRONG PERSPECTIVE or the view that people cannot accept. GP, as said earlier on.

Not that i'm doubting whether JC is a life for me, its really more on the bad side of me that always keep surfacing. The side that can't do this or that. Maths, dunnoe why, but i kinda lost the drive i had in secondary school. Where i suprise myself by getting a B4 for O levels maths, when my average used to be D7.

CA1 test was all the more disappointing, just as i thought i would be able to score atleast an E(pass). I got a U, which is so much worser off than a S, sumore this is H1 leh! I really wonder if this would cause me to be retent next year somehow, no matter how i try to be optimistic that i'm able to get it, one way or the other.

So, i better be off doing my Int History reflections/PROOF reflections/SEA History Term Essay right now :D